Perfect...?

Had been spamming P!nk's songs a lot on youtube lately. The lyrics of her songs really struck me, especially the song "Perfect". Even it's music video is inspirational!

Perfect by P!nk (Censored version of  F***ing Perfect)

"You're so mean, 

when you are talking about yourself. 

You were wrong. 

Change the voices in your head; 

make them like you instead. 

So complicated, 

look how we all made it  filled with so much hatred. 

Such a tired game."

"Oh pretty, pretty please

Don't you ever ever feel

Like you are less than, less than perfect.

Pretty pretty please

if you ever ever feel like you are nothing,

You are perfect to me."

I was basically infamous among my friends of being hard on myself, being depress all the time regarding my looks and what-not. I had been so overly concerned about how other people around think of me that I often feel very little self-esteem. Be it looks; personality; the way I talk; the way I think. 

I am naturally over-sensitive and I find myself, more often then not, asking some of my friends " Is he/she's angry at me", "did I say something bad?" or "Was it my fault?". 

Yes, those who know me well enough would know the frustration of ensuring me it was nothing of those sort.  

I was actually pretty glad that I joined Cosplay because I was able to learn how to doll up myself and I got to have lots of chances for photoshoots. Those were the times I found myself pretty in pictures and actually felt good about myself.

Min told me that before I joined NP, the number of facebook pictures of myself were pitiful, but look at the number now, [quotes] "your face is everywhere!" (or something like that :P) I admit that I don't really like how my face looked on pictures before, often labeling myself as "Ugly", "fake" and "weird".  

I admit I still felt this even now. 

However, I had been getting better. Being more confident slowly. I probably have those compliments to thank for. XD

Gladys recently had been trying to teach me from the book "The Magic", which she claims that it had been working for her. 

The key to attain what you want is by treasuring what you already have.

  

I am a strong believer of Karma, so I do believe that by feeling good about the stuffs you have, feeling happy that you still have a roof on your head is going to gain more "luck" into your life than if you kept complaining about everything under the sun. For example, those who have a happy mind will have a beautiful appearance, no matter how average they were. 

I was suppose to make it a habit by typing 10 gratitudes everyday for 2 months. By doing that, I am to feel grateful for what I already have, and not thinking about what I don't. 

Sounds very biblical isn't it? That is because all religion teaches this. This is the key of being a better person and to live a more fulfilling life. If you kept whining about things, chances are, you will always be stuck at where you are. However, if you were to open your mind, all the paths will seemed to open in front of you. Hence, the "miracle".   

Well, the main point is, do not stress yourself over how perfect you had to be and just enjoy who you are. If you really want to change in order to feel better about yourself, set some goals you want to achieve and write it down in detail. 

If you ever feel that you are nothing, change the voices in your head, make them like you instead.

Open yourself to chances and chances will come to you.

P.S: This is such a long post :P 

Since I was feeling inspirational and I know that somewhere down the road I might lose my way, this post can at least guide me back. Hope it would help to those who will be reading this too :)